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The Bridge

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I’ve talked about this dream before and even wrote about it in a few different blog posts I’ve done.  I talk about it often because of all the dreams and nightmares I’ve ever had, this one really sunk into me hard.  I remember the year it happened; 1986.  I was just sixteen years old then and not really as awake of a person as I should have been as far as being spiritually enlightened, so to speak.

I did clue in that it was a prophetic message of some kind.  That much I did figure out, but still had many questions surrounding.  And I knew not one human being could figure it out, not even those who claim to be dream specialists.

The dream involved me being on a tall bridge, high above the ground (more like water) and it was connecting two sides of a city.  For some reason, Vancouver, British Columbia felt like it was the city I was in.  For me that’s weird in itself because I’ve never been there.  And, after that dream I had, I have zero intention of going there.

In the dream I am on this bridge and it’s dark out.  I fathomed it was evening, but there really wasn’t enough time to figure out if that was the case or not.  The dream started immediately with a violent shake that felt like a mammoth earthquake.  All I recall was hanging for dear life on that bridge as the world around me burst into absolute chaos.

I guess I must have closed my eyes while on this bridge because next thing I remember is seeing chaos and destruction on one side of this bridge and the exact same thing on the other.  The only thing that remained unharmed was the bridge itself.  However, laws of physics suggested based on the level of destruction that occurred and that the nightmare was far from over, the fires raging would sooner or later get to the bridge and I’d be done for.

So I wrestled with the decision to which side of this bridge should I run to.  Do I go east or west?  Neither option looked good as they both had so much chaos and destruction going on within them that staying on the bridge was actually safer at the time.  However, there was an urgency to pick a side and just go for it.

Without putting any further thought into it and opting to save my life by any means necessary, I decide to make a run for it towards one of the sides.  However, I do recall stopping just short of reaching the destination as the connection between the bridge I was standing on and the land I was going to run for broke was severed.

Looking back, running to the other side wasn’t an option either as the connection between the bridge and it was also broken.

Now, I do remember the bridge making movement, but it wasn’t as expected.  The lands this bridge was in between were the ones that gave way, not the bridge itself.  I finally figured this one out after years of thinking that bridge was a crossroads for me based on life decisions as to what I wanted from this particular world.

All this time I thought the bridge was telling me time was running out for me to make a choice between sides that had so much uncertainty to them.  But recently I’ve come to realize this wasn’t the case at all.  The bridge was my protection from those two sides of uncertainty.  Remember, in the nightmare those sides were extremely unsafe.  They were in states of chaos and everything was destroyed.  There were cries of despair as lives were being decimated and it was clear survival from all that was just not humanly possible.

I’ve come to realize the bridge was Yeshua (Jesus Christ), hence why I felt so safe on it despite me being clueless to what was really going on.  However, in this nightmare I did not trust Him enough to keep protecting me and I made the mistake of attempting to pick a side in some vain belief that it was the right thing to do.

As I look back, I recall the latter half of 2008 having me at a crossroads in life where I was reacquainting myself with Father by picking up the Holy Bible and do what I’ve never done before.  Read it from cover to cover.  It was already established even then I trusted no denominational church and no man-appointed priest.  I also came across a name and face I recall seeing back in the mid 1980’s that had a profound effect on me.  His name was Herbert R. Armstrong.

It was one of those late nights where I couldn’t sleep.  So, I decide to watch TV and came across The World Tomorrow and it was hosted by him.  It was the only episode I ever saw as I was fatigued and didn’t pay attention to the name of the show nor what hour it came on. I do remember looking for it again but never could find it.  Until 2008.  There was stuff he mentioned that really hit me hard and it was the best piece of ministry I ever knew.  To this day it still is, aside from the bible itself.

What’s uncanny is all that he warned about in that particular episode actually happened.  There’s still more yet to come.  In 2008, when I got the name, the programming and the name Church of God, I did some searching.  I tried to connect to the Worldwide Church of God, but they contradicted what Armstrong preached.  So I searched again and found Restored Church of God.  I then learned about Living Church of God and I started remembering the splinters even Armstrong mentioned.  At first I wasn’t too wary because I was excited about certain veils being lifted I never saw through before.  However, when I started to see certain attitudes and inconsistencies I pulled back.

It was if someone pulled me back.  Again, it’s the bridge feeling.  I felt like when I first read the bible I was on the bridge, searching for a side that seemed approachable enough despite it’s uncertainty.  I had a taste and realized that side is not survivable in it’s current state.  Too much chaos within the ranks and too many splinters that can fly out and take out my eyes and more.

It was even at a time where I favored Zionism, not realizing what it really meant.  For me, I assumed the Zionists were the Jews of the Holy Bible that God rescued from Exodus.  It did not sink in they could be the very counterfeits warned about.  I already knew something was off about the Roman Cathoilc Church and their splintered denominations, but didn’t think too much about the splinters of Judaism.

Again, picking a side with too many uncertainties.  That bridge felt like it jolted me away from fully committing to that side and thus sealing my fate in a manner that would have brought about my destruction.

I already knew the other side of the bridge was not an option.  That side lied to me my whole life.  Even with good intentions, the darkness that engulfs that side is so toxic that it keeps the victims clueless that they’re being systematically killed off.

The raging waters below I’ve come to learn is the symbol of the storm that’s erupting from the wars brewing from the two opposing sides.  The bridge that is situated high above it had me in a position where I could see everything.  However, my judgment was so clouded at the time that panic won out over faith.  It was because of that I nearly ran to my death by failing to believe in the bridge of protection I was standing on.  Those raging waters below is the fight between good and evil that dwells within each of us.

We each have choices to make.  How often are we told to pick a side, or choose your fate?  But, as I’ve taken it upon myself to read the bible the second time recently, I’ve learned there’s another choice we’re offered but this world doesn’t give that to you.  Only Father does via Yeshua (Jesus).
Save Lose.jpgIt then hit me that it wasn’t about a choice what to do with my life as a member of this world, but what I choose to do with my life spiritually.  It was about choosing life on this earth or life with Christ.  Staying on that bridge, even knowing it will let go and plunge into the rough waters below, was choosing to believe in Christ instead of the world I was trapped in that kept me distracted.

Those two sides represented neverending quarrells that had resulted in their inevitable destruction.  So distracted were they with their own pettiness they didn’t realize running to that bridge was their only way out of a fate that would otherwise have them burning forever in that eternal fire the bible talks about.

It’s not the first time I’ve had dreams of this nature, nor has it been the last, but it is the most profound that has really dug deep enough into my psyche where I can’t let it go.  And I won’t let myself let it go even if I could.  Something deep down tells me to remember that bridge and never make the attempt to step off it again.



Drawing Lines

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People seem to think because I speak so harshly against the Islamic faith that I hate Muslims.  Nothing can be further from the truth.  Most Muslims, just like every other form of religion (Christianity, Judaism, Buddhism, Scientology, Atheism, etc.) don’t fully understand what it is they’re following.

I even speak harshly against various sects involving Christianity and Judaism as I’ve come to recognize that the leaders of the Roman Catholic Church isn’t at all what they appear and neither are the leaders of the Ashkenazi Jewish.  The masses are deceived, just as predicted in both the Holy Bible and the Torah.

Are you aware that the name Allah is Hebrew for curse?
If this doesn’t send an alarm bell to both those of Christian and Jewish faith systems then clearly they’re not as devoted to the true word of God/Yeshua as they claim.


Don’t just take the bible’s word for it.  How about the Quran itself?


But too many, despite learning the truth would rather keep themselves entertained by other means.  And that is because of….


Do you realize pride is what keeps you from reaching your true potential?  It keeps you drowning in a world you shouldn’t be in.

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And pride also causes people to be blind to even the most obvious of truths.

I know what it’s like to have pride get in the way of better judgment.  It prevents you from seeing, makes you deaf and the walls it creates around you has you trapped like a prisoner.  That wall of pride, just like the walls of Jericho, can be taken down.  If necessary, one brick at a time until that wall is completely destroyed so you can cross over into the harsh truths of reality for what it is.  It’s not easy, but it is necessary.

This is what Yehua/God taught his people when they went up against all of the enemies when they were brought out of Egypt.  Who do you think most of those enemies were and why do you think he had such issues with them?  And no, it’s not due to vanity as the atheists would claim.

When you go over the pics do you now understand where this is coming from?  Do you get it yet?  When you reach this state you know there’s no turning back.  And really, when you think about it, do you even want to?  I know I don’t.

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Asleep No More

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In the jungle, the mighty jungle the lion sleeps tonight…


This lion is awake!  This lion is alert!  And this lion is on the prowl and pouncing with a mix of prayer and spiritual might on anything and everything I see warrants it.

Prior to reaching this state, I opted for a more slothful state of slumber as I was so focused on myself that I didn’t really pay too much attention to what was going on around me.  In my head, as long as it stayed out of my own little jungle, I’m good.  What can I do anyway?  I’m just one person.  What can one person do against the whole world?

But then when you think of Jesus Christ (Yeshua) reality sinks in that one person can indeed change the world as he was more than just the Son of God.  He was (still is) our Messiah, whether people choose to believe it or not.  All those who challenge his existence and who he really was has no grounds for reasonable argument to dismiss him as none of those living among us were there for the experience.  And, mankind’s timeline has repeatedly demonstrted truths get altered into stories that heavily cloud the events as they truly happened.

Even the bible itself has been manipulated.  Many believe the bible to be false and while some are correct with this conclusion, they fail to dig deeper that extends their argument beyond the perversions the Roman Catholic Church imposed upon who our Holy Father really is, who Jesus is and who we are supposed to be as a people.

The Vatican, which is the official headquarters that control Catholicism on a worldwide stage, seems to practice good Christian faith, but they are anything but this.  They practice idolatry, which is a huge no if you bother to pay attention to the ten commandments.  What’s worse is they teach others to do the same, who in turn blindly follow without daring to question.  And this is not the only falsehood they teach.  There’s so much more to them than meets the eye and none of it is good.

How many of you Christians are aware that the Sabbath was changed from Saturday to Sunday by Constantine?  I understand it was changed mainly to honor Jesus, which is cool, but if Jesus honored the Sabbath on Saturdays to honor Father, then what right do we have to change this?  How many of you Christians are aware that unless followers of Christ conformed to the new day of worship they were put to death?  Are you aware that when you go to Sunday service that this is not our Father’s appointed day, but one appointed by man?  Most of the common holidays celebrated today belong to man, not Father.

Wikipedia Sabbath
Who Changed the Sabbath?

Also, how many times has the Catholic leaders been caught in the news for crimes against humanity that know no age limits?  How much do we not know?  Are you aware just how much control the Vatican has on the world as we know it?  Do you have any idea how deep their fingers dip in the bloodied pools of deceit?  Odds are many of you don’t.  Do a thorough Google search on this and figure it out.

Of the few who do, fewer still are willing to speak up about it.  Already challenging everything we thought we knew about the Vatican and their Roman Catholic practices is difficult.  It’s even harder to convince the masses, who are still wearing veils of deceit over their eyes, to take the time to see it and figure it out for themselves.

I used to be one of those people.  Granted, I don’t think I ever cared for the Vatican nor their popes for as long as I can remember, but I did care a great deal about my religous beliefs.  I always believed in Father (as God) and in Yeshua (as Jesus), but never really saw the point of going to weekly church services to prove that fact.  I already knew they’d know our hearts and would even see clean through the b/s of those who don’t go to church because they want to, but do so out of obligation that somehow God would notice.

Oh yeah, he notices alright, but he knows the difference between those who follow some minister who prophets with his own belief system and those who’d rather hear the truth directly from the Father’s mouth.  I always have (and always will) put what is written in the Holy Bible above and beyond what any minister has to say.  And I’m certainly going to believe it over the congregation.  Most members within the congregation haven’t even read the bible from cover to cover with the same level of devotion they do with their weekly church attending practices.

To me, those people are lambs.  Innocent enough to follow a belief system that focuses on Father/Jesus, but not smart enough to realize they’re making the exact same mistakes Adam and Eve made back in Genesis.

I used to be one of those lambs until I realized I was merely another member of the sheep family being lead to slaughter by wolves who disguised themselves to be a shepherd.  It’s really quite scary when you first wake up to this fact and a part of you wants to just fall back to sleep as you try to convince yourself the nightmare isn’t real.  I’ve actually been able to do this a few times, but when you’re jolted awake enough times you realize falling back to sleep is no longer an option.

So, instead of trying to lull myself back to a state of slumber, I do some reading.  The news is so riddled with false information, which in turn causes people to deliver the news in the exact same manner had me realize turning to them for answers was not the right way to go.  Want to be right with Father and Jesus?  Go to the only truth that counts, namely the bible.  So I went there.

When I first really snapped out of it (2008) I realized the true day of worship fell on Saturdays, not Sundays.  I also realized holidays like Christmas, Easter, Valentine’s and many others were man-made twists to Father’s holidays.  When I realized all this I was livid that I (and the masses) had been lied to all this time.

So I started looking up Judaism (while reading the bible) and I discovered animosity towards Zionism.  At first I thought “this is the group to follow” and defended them because it seemed so many people were against them.  But then I realized that this is not the group to follow either.  They, just like the Roman Catholics, are one of the many counterfeits Father and Jesus warned about in that bible.  I think it was 2014 when I really clued in just how false the Zionist version of the Jews really was and it was 2015 I started to join the (much smaller) ranks of those who saw clean through their deception.

And you don’t even want to get me started on Islam and their Quran.  That, hands down, has become the most vile religious practice there is.  Dig around enough and once you make the connection between them and the very people Father instructed to decimate it is all those who follow this particular religion.  The very symbol associated with Islam has nothing to do with Father, but rather their moon god, Allah, which is merely another alias for Satan.  Even the Quran itself admits it.

I’ve since learned to stop following groups.  Even in the bible, you see entire congregations go astray that riles up the temper of Father.  Some will say what kind of god is he if he’s a jealous god.  Well, think about it from a parental point of view.  You have a child born to you whom you love with all your heart.  How much does it hurt when that love isn’t returned?  How much does it hurt when your child disobeys your every word and is so defiant against you that you can’t help but wonder if this child was switched at birth and you were given something that resembles more like demon spawn?  How does it feel when your child runs around saying “I hate my mother!  I hate my father!” or, “They’re not my parents.  They may have created me, but that’s it.  I want nothing to do with them.  I’d rather spend time with more worthy people, like that fun couple who are my best friend’s parents.  You know, the friend my parents want me to have nothing to do with.”

As a parent, would you not feel jealous that your child has favored someone other than yourself?  For those who don’t have children, how does it feel when you’ve done something that you know you deserve recognition for, but someone else (who is far less deserving) steals the spotlight from you instead?  It’s not a great feeling, so try to see it from Father’s point of view and maybe you won’t see him as such a jerk after all.

I know for me, when I first actually read the bible I was shocked at how violent it was.  It completely dismantled the “loving god” sugar coating quotes I got from the visits I had with the church (as a kid it was a mix of Lutheran and Pentecostal).  I started to understand why atheists came up with the kind of conclusions they did and I will admit, was starting to think maybe their viewpoints were more accurate than everyone elses’s.

However, there is a huge flaw to the way of thinking those atheists share.  As good of an argument they can come up with, nothing compares to solid truth.  The creation of all we know wasn’t strung together by random chance, nor by some sort of alien presence that had a slave race in mind.  The history of mankind was played out by bad choices people made by listening to the wrong voices.  We chose wrong since Genesis and we still choose wrong today.

Some will argue if God is so mighty then why use human beings to do his dirty work?  Why the killing?  Why the sacrifices?  Well, this is what mankind chose, not him.  When the choice to embrace the Tree of Knowledge was favored over the Tree of Life, what was chosen was suicide.  God already knew this, as did Satan (formerly known as Lucifer).  That is why Satan deceived Eve, who in turn led Adam to deception also.  And no, it wasn’t something as simple as biting into some apple.  If people haven’t figured out by now the bible is riddled with parables and metaphors by now they never will.

We chose to elevate ourselves (like yeast) to a level we weren’t ready for.  We still make that mistake to this very day.  Sadly, mankind never learns from their mistakes and this is why we continually repeat them.  We wanted to be like the gods, so this also means learning everything they know, including how to kill.  Satan, like that crazy uncle who promotes mindless antics in the so-called name of fun, knew mankind was all too eager to grow up fast so he handed to them exactly what they thought they wanted.  And we still make it too easy for him and his minions to keep us blindly entertained to this day.

Look over the entire timeline of mankind’s history books and it’s overloaded with violence.  Is this God’s doing?  Well, like any loving parent, the best way to teach a child to grow up is to let them learn from their own mistakes but at the same time don’t forget to discipline them.  So we allow Uncle Satan to mess us up because God knows if he interferes it’ll just make us that much more defiant with him.  However, he will come to our rescue (as proven in the past when you read Exodus to Revelations) if he sees us crying out for it to the point where his loving nature overtakes his feeling of rejection.  All parents who give a damn about their kid does this, even if they know somewhere down the road that kid is going to screw up yet again.

However, even a parent knows that sometimes the best way to discipline a child is to temporarily cut them off if that child refuses to get their act together despite all the rescues.  This is how it is between mankind and Father/Jesus.  This is like trying to get someone addicted to something that’s known to be destructive to stop when deep down that person isn’t ready (or willing) to do it.  Why waste time on those too stubborn to be saved when you can focus on the child(ren) that are crying out for it and are genuinely trying to make things right?  It doesn’t mean the stubborn child gets permanently ignored.  It just means those who are ready, willing and able to do right are going to get the attention they do deserve a bit quicker because Father knows by helping them out he’s just earned himself some assistants to focus on the stubborn child who continues to be so defiant.

Does God need assistance?  Not really, but God truly is the very definition of Father as he seems to focus on family and teamwork.  This is why, the people who chose “knowledge” over “life” are put to tasks that are really trying on the human spirit.  This is what they wanted, so this is what they get.  When God wishes to hand victory over to people whom have really won over his favor, he’s not doing it as an act of malice against the targets he has in mind.  He’s doing it as a cleansing program, much like the flood during Noah’s day.  Of those who choose to live wickedly where there’s zero regard for life and zero regard for what’s truly righteous, they are to be either re-educated or rooted out.  What better way to teach the people of Israel (real Israel – not the counterfeit we see today) this lesson than to get them to learn how to do this themselves?  They wanted to be like gods, so here’s their chance.

However, being god-like comes with responsibility.  Father tried to teach them this through Moses and Aaron during Exodus, Leviticus, Numbers and Deuteronomy.  As often as difficult lessons were taught to them, it was equally often the people reverted back to acts of defiance against the very hand that brought them out of Egypt by acts of wonder that never should have been forgotten in the first place.

It’s easier to act immaturely than it is to exercise better judgment, so all too often people take what is the lazy route to living.  Again, it’s easier to stand back and yawn rather than plow forward and be responsible for every action you do.

And this is what keeps getting mankind into trouble.  Right from the very beginning mankind has been defiant with Father.  Even as they want to be more like him and his angels and the foreign gods they opt to worship, they always revert back to some form of stupidity that warrants rude awakenings and reminders they still have lots of growing up to do.

That’s why the wars.  That’s why the violence.  That’s why all the pain, death and suffering.  This is the way of life people have chosen.  And if you opt to disagree with me, take a good look at the most popular genre of entertainment that has existed since the dawn of time.

During the days of the Roman Empire they hosted games that glorified violence in every form imaginable.  Today we have various forms of boxing, wrestling and animal fights that rake in big money for mankind’s seemingly incurable need for violent entertainment.  The most popular movies and television shows feature violence as a means to make them more exciting for the audience who is more than happy to pay for this sort of thing.  And the news itself has learned how to manipulate scenes of violence into their programming to captivate the largest audience they possibly can for ratings.  Higher ratings means better windows of opportunity for commercials to swoop in and brainwash the masses into buying product they most likely don’t need.

This is who we think we are.  This is what we asked for, but while the majority still don’t see beyond the veils of deception that goes with it, the tiny few have become more aware.  The few realize this world we live in right now is a giant song and dance show thrown at us by Satan and all those who are in his camp.  Uncle Satan is entertaining the masses with everything he’s got and I have to admit it’s a brilliant puppet show.

However, all shows come to an end sooner or later.  Even long-running soap operas have fallen into obscurity.  All those involved will fade away into dust as the makup wears off.  At that point all the flaws are exposed and people see the true faces behind the masks that has kept them fooled for so long.

Once reality hits, it hits hard.  For me, just like I can map out scene for scene of a show before it even comes up, I am able to do the same with what’s going on in this world.  I do get surprised from time to time, but those occasions are become rarer each time I become more awake.

However, I never take even my own answers as gospel.  I’m not that insightful.  Only Father, through Jesus/Yeshua, has that ability and that’s the only truth I cling to as it’s the only one that really matters.


Just Sayin…

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When I started blogging down my thoughts and opted to go public format instead of just keeping it to myself it always has been and always will be a sounding board to unleash the build up of concerns I have over a variety of issues.

Most people who come across my posts on Facebook probably see nothing more than an angry person ranting off like a lunatic on issues instead of just shutting up.  I actually tried doing that.  I tried to walk away and preoccupy myself with other things so I’d stop getting so involved on issues such as the environment, politics and anything humanitarian related.  I know most people do this and for them it succeeds because their ability to turn off their moral obligation to stay vigilant seems easy enough.

I, however, can’t do it.  I can for a short while, but soon guilt creeps in and I literally feel someone jolting me to get back into the fight whether I want to or not.  I’ve tried gaming, but have found myself now in a position where I find it’s distasteful.  I’ve tried to entertain myself with television programs, but as usual that one is futile as I all too quickly see through the commercialism associated with the garbage and turn it all off.

I’ve been battling the on/off switch for a very long time.  If truth be known, I think it’s something I’ve fought ever since childhood.  As a kid, however, you don’t really understand the grand scheme of things yet.

As a teenager you get it a bit more, but this is the timeline where usually teens are trying to find a comfortable place for themselves in a world that’s forever changing.  The school system and your family are also pushing you at this stage to fit the mould of modern society so you don’t get left behind like a street bum.  So dealing with the peer pressure outweighs any genuine attempt to absorb other realities that perhaps you’re psyche isn’t ready for yet.

My childhood was awkward.  My mother died when I was seven years old, but already lost her when I was just six as I found her on the floor in a state that is really graphic for literally anyone, never mind a small child.  She had a brain aneurysm and finding her helpless on the floor is something you never forget.  You also don’t forget how different adults can be from each other as I witnessed some make assumptions that were completely off base while finally in the end one of them used her head and called an ambulance.  I had to tell my father when he came home from work what happened to his wife as I waited for his arrival on the front doorstep of our home.  Then it was taking him to the one neighbor who had the brain (took her a while to get there, though) to send my mother to the hospital.

My mother never did make it home.  It was late June 1977 and my mother died November 1977, never once really recovering from the burst that turned her into a human vegetable for those long months.  I did get to see her, but direct lines of communication was out.  Too much brain damage, but not enough where she couldn’t at least speak to me.  Writing on my hand as if it were a notebook, she scribbled “I love you” on it and that too is something, even at just six and seven years old, you don’t forget.

Upon my mother’s death I had to grow up fast.  Even though I still had my father the fact is he worked nights and a small child being left alone was simply unacceptable.  So I wound up staying with not one, but a multitude of different families for a grand total of 9 years.  What I learned in that time frame was how their view on literally everything was inconsistent.  With family #1 they were slobs.  Unclean house.  Poor food choices.  A divided home where the mother and father fought all the time.  This was a very disorganized house and when my father saw I was developing rashes and was always sad he got me out of there and put me into an environment that was the polar opposite.

These people were clean freaks (especially the woman) and extremely religious.  Say the wrong thing, do the wrong thing or just flat out look the wrong way and you’d be in for it.  It wasn’t abusive, but when a young kid goes from a house that virtually had no concept of cleanliness nor discipline to one that regarded both as an art form it’s tough.  I managed, but not easily.

Family #3 was better, but far.  At least they were related and it was great to have someone whom to this day I still regard as a sister.  We were only two years apart but shared the same interest in just about everything at the time so it was easy to forget the fact that I could only see my father on weekends due to his working conditions.

Families #4 to #9 (where Family #3 was repeated for a year in the mix as Family #9) had me flip flop between conditions that differed from each other each time.  This exposes a kid to see so much, but all the while I was heavily distracted by just wanting to be a kid and do my thing and loneliness that I didn’t get to spend as much time with my father as I liked.  I really loved my father, more than anything because despite it all I felt like he was all I truly had.

When I finally reached an age where I could stay home and be with my father I took it for granted.  Although no excuse justifies acting like a spoiled brat who happens to be a teenager, I look back and get it as to why emotionally I was so hostile.  I didn’t just take it out on him.  I took it out on everyone.  In school I’d literally plow into fellow students whom I felt deserved it because they were picking on someone whom I befriended at the same school whom I noticed was bullied for no good reason at all by them.

Thing is, you don’t solve bullying by becoming one yourself.  It just aggravates the problem that much more.  But, that’s the past and I learned from it.

I was never overly fond of school from start to finish.  Granted, I think there are very few kids who will admit they loved school, but my problem was seeing how fake almost everybody around me was.  At first I thought the problem was just me and evidently so did others because I got taken into therapy when I was about 11 years old.  The fact that I had been bounced everywhere as a kid it’s no surprise at all something like this was bound to happen.

Strangely enough, though, even at 11 I could see how ridiculous the therapy was.  The only plus behind it was I didn’t have to go to school on those days and I got to spend more time with my father.  I think my father saw the therapy a waste too because those sessions didn’t last for long.  All they did was make me more hostile and he saw it.  And because I knew this I kept my distance from as many people as I could I knew I’d shred in an instant if I allowed myself to do so.  Believe it or not, even as a kid I did have a moral code of sorts to not gouge to death anybody dumb enough to piss me off.  And considering how angry I was at the time, it didn’t take much to trigger the “I want to kill you” switch.

I dealt with my anger by being manipulative.  I was extremely good at it, or so I thought.  When I look back at it, the only person I truly manipulated was myself into thinking I was something I wasn’t.  I thought I was a victim of circumstances that was beyond my control and I had no choice but to commit some of the stunts I pulled in order to just survive.

I was like that all the way up until 2008.  Even when my father had his first heart attack in 1986 I had this lousy attitude.  I did grow a great deal starting 1986 as it made me realize my father wasn’t going to be around forever and it was about time I stopped feeling sorry for myself and grow the hell up.  And I did, but not entirely.

I got rid of some bad people in my life that actually fed more fuel to my negativity back then.  As soon as I did that I got a bit more clarity.  However, this was also the time frame I started getting knocked down pretty hard with horrifying nightmares of global proportions that somewhat threw me off.  This is also when I came across a program that was aired by some guy named Armstrong.  He really left an impression on me and I remember that program like as if I just watched it last night.  What’s crazy is although in 1986, he said of things to come that I see is happening today.  What he talked about and the warnings issued hit home and this came after I had my nightmares of cataclysmic destruction all over the place that looked like war zones.  What he said and what I dreamt matched!  How crazy is that?

I never got to see another program liked it.  I looked for it.  It wasn’t until 2008 I figured out who he was and whom he represented.  Herbert W. Armstrong was his name and it was Worldwide Church of God.

Now, 2008 was a big year for me.  My best friend died after a battle against cancer in it’s summer and shortly after that my one aunt who pretty much became my surrogate mother from 1977 onward.  For the record, that aunt is from the Family #3 and Family #9 I talked about earlier.

2008 also saw me move away from the city and into a remote corner I knew very little about.  All I knew was in 2008 the window of opportunity to get away from a large population to one much smaller was a necessity.  Not to run away from my problems, but to go in a direction my gut kept telling me I needed to go by any means necessary.  This was the year I became a homeowner for the first time and the year I vowed to get back in touch with my roots, God, and find myself a church organization that I can believe in.

The first church I went to where I live now was disappointing.  Dull.  Lame.  Phonies.  Could see through it all.  Here I go again, I thought.  I had this problem as a kid, as a teen and as a young adult.  Even before leaving Edmonton I still had issues with relating to most people, but did learn to calm down enough to not be so judgmental.

Instead of giving up, I located another church.  Late 2008, early 2009 I came across a website that had me finally figure out who Armstrong was and learned more about this Church Of God.  I promptly searched to find remnants of this church near where I live.  I found one, but it wasn’t quite the same name, but it was still Church Of God so I went.  Everything about it matched at the time what Armstrong said, but it wasn’t until after I got there and met the people there that I was quickly disappointed again.  This is not the same calibre of people Armstrong’s church depicted.  Again, not wanting to be judgmental, I kept quiet and opted to check on the second version of this Church Of God that also had their own name.

This group was considerably better, or so I thought.  They seemed to have their affairs and priorities in order.  Until I got to know them much better.  Then I saw the contradictions.  I think it was the reality check I needed that following any man’s church organization is not the same as following that one church referred to in the Holy Bible.  I got to the point where instead of expecting to learn from people whom I thought would be closer to God than me, just go figure it out for myself.  Read the bible on my own and do my own math.  I learned through that the only voice I should be listening to anymore is what comes from my gut.

I learned a great deal from that.  When I read the bible I was thrown off guard by how violent it was.  And God was very judgmental.  At one point I figured God was one really screwed up individual because I’d read things like arms going up and down to turn the tides of war and hardening some king’s heart to make life of his chosen people even more miserable before unleashing holy payback when he felt the time was right to do so.  I began to think that this God person probably doesn’t deserve the kind of devotion he apparently craves from his people.  I’m thinking “what a tyrant!”

But I didn’t give up reading.  Kept going.  I can actually understand at that point why there’s this thing called atheism.  When you read the bible like you read a novel and don’t take the time to actually pay attention to what you’re reading it scripts out like a badly written horror film.  It’s no wonder priests in most church organizations only read the pretty parts and merge them with other scriptures so that the ugly side of the biblical stories aren’t revealed.  It’s no wonder the congregation seems so apathetic and phony in my eyes because they just blindly fall for it.  They just believe instead of making the effort to uncover truths for themselves.

I see most people like that.  I see it in social media, schools, at job sites, in the malls and just everywhere I go.  Rumors.  Stories.  What the first storyteller says and what the final storyteller says will vary greatly as interpretations of it get jumbled along the way.

The Holy Bible is no different.  You can even see it in the writings.  Inspired by God or not, each person who wrote in it has different views and different ways of telling what they saw.  Again, no different than if you get five witnesses seeing the exact same car accident.  When statements are taken based on what they saw, everyone will have a different spin on the story.  The Holy Bible fits this exact same mould, both by those who wrote in it and by those who’ve read it.

I know what I got out of it doesn’t match at all what most people did.  Since reading that book I can no longer step food into any given church without some sort of disdain towards them.  Although no doubt with good intentions by the majority, I sense virtually everyone doesn’t get the big picture.  In the bible it says a church that cannot be torn down.  The Vatican, as mighty as it is, can get torn down.  All it takes is a nuke and it’s gone.

Not taking anything away from the Vatican.  I have zero doubt in my mind upon it’s original conception that it was indeed favored by God as this was erected by followers of Jesus Christ as directed by the disciples he left behind when he died.

However, there’s mixed stories of the origin of Jesus also.  Are we told today after the book of Revelations that’s truthful?  History has proven the Roman Catholic Church has changed a great deal since the time of Jesus Christ.  Even the Holy Bible they altered in the late 1600’s for whatever reason.  Search the net and there’s a conflict behind why that was done, but I recall in the bible that God warned about making changes to his laws that turn what’s supposed to be genuine into counterfeits.  The Egyptians did it during the Exodus, as did Aaron and his followers did when they sculpted the golden calf.  Even during the days of Jesus Christ, whose timeline exists within the heart of the Roman Empire, you see how much had been altered before his arrival, during his days alive and even after his death/resurrection.  It still happens today.

Emperor Constantine changed Sabbath worship from Saturday to Sunday, not because some bishop nor God told him so.  It’s because he favored the sun.  Now, if anybody took the time to read that bible and understand God’s warnings, who did he say not to follow?

If you guessed Baal you got it right.  Now, in that bible it states Baal is regarded as a sun god.  This goes as far back into Genesis and this was whose works the Egyptians favored.  Over and over again you see man changing things to favor what they desire most instead of staying true to who they really are and what their original creator had in mind for them.

The violence I read in the bible I was oddly enough able to wrap my head around in a manner that made somewhat sense.  I still don’t totally understand, but if there’s any one thing I’ve noticed in the people I encounter, plus what I see on a global scale, is arrogance is a disease that gets under our skin in a manner we don’t realize is there until it’s too late.

That was my problem as a kid and it’s still something I see myself fighting today.  Pride is a horrible snake that always finds a way to slither in and out of your life in a manner that messes you up really bad.  Pride is what sparks wars.  Pride is what makes people think they’re better than they really are.  Pride is also what prevents people from seeing the difference between farce and reality.  Pride is a cloud and it’s very fluffy.  Pride acts as an elevator as it rises what used to be well grounded into a territory that probably should be avoided until one is able to better handle the situation.

In Exodus you see pride in abundance.  Even after the people escaped their oppressors as they followed Moses, God noticed how “stiff-necked” they all were.  He knew no sooner would they be free would they make the exact same mistakes the Egyptians, the very people they fled from, made.

And they have.  Still doing it today.  People are prideful and hence in Exodus how God mentions the unleavened bread.  Yeast.  Yeast expands stuff that’d otherwise remain dense.  That yeast exists within each of us, which is also known as pride.  If this part of us remains unchecked, we end up throwing ourselves into situations that we most likely aren’t ready for.  And no, it doesn’t matter how smart you think you are.  If there is any one thing I’ve learned, your intelligence level is only as great as the deception you’ve swallowed into your very being.

I’m not a smart person by any means.  I wish I were, but I know I’m not.  If I was half as smart as I’d like to be I’d have all the answers for you.  I’d be, in essence, God.  But I know I’m not so I don’t kid myself into thinking I’m any better than the rest of you.  I am a human being, just like you.  I see things, just like you.  However, unlike you, I see things differently and it’s a daily struggle to not only wrap my head around it but how to talk about it.

I do know now that I have to talk about it.  Don’t care if I sound like some sort of insane person for it because I’m not doing this blog for you.  I do it for myself.  If you read it and can make sense of it, good for you.  If not, I don’t care.

Uncle Lucifer

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When Genesis is talked about and the big sin that Adam and Eve committed when they embraced the Tree of Knowledge over the Tree of Life, what did you think that sin was?

Biting into an apple?  So to speak, yes, but it was technically referred to as forbidden fruit. This is now the part I admit I could never really understand why God would have such an issue about a pair of naive kids plucking edibles from a tree he didn’t want them to touch.  I figured it was merely a test of a person’s willpower, just like a dieter is tested to choose between a healthy bowl of nuts or an unhealthy bag of manufactured potato chips.

For the most part, it is true.  The first victim, Eve, was given a choice as it was more than just her willpower that was tested.  It was her character.  And she failed.  When Lucifer approached her he seduced her to embrace the Tree of Knowledge.  That apple, so to speak, was Lucifer himself and not some hanging item off a tree branch.

What Lucifer did was take Eve’s virginity.  That’s the forbidden fruit God was referring to.  No matter how the story is told about Adam and Eve, the one common factor was the moment they gave into temptation all innocence was lost.

How else can a person go from being innocent to tainted and have no chance to restore that for as long as you’re still alive?  Bottom line is you can’t and that’s what happened to first Eve, then Adam.

If you recall how Genesis is explained, both in the bible and in other material, Eve fell first and then introduced Adam to take that exact same fall as she had yet to grasp the full consequences of her actions.  Also, if you recall how these actions resulted in God making the choice to have them live with their actions instead of killing them on the spot.  That price included painful childbirth for the mother and for the father the necessity to toil (work) at everything as a provider.  This means hard labour in a variety of jobs that include gardening, farming, carpentry, etc.

For those who question God’s decision to do this, keep in mind he had the option to cease mankind’s existence right from the beginning.  Who likes to be disobeyed?  Also, put yourself in  God’s situation here.  For those who are parents you’re most likely to understand how precious your child is to you.  If you learned your child was violated you would be incensed.  Your first reaction would be to punish the violator.  This is exactly what God did with Lucifer.  He punished him severely and swiftly, which is what any father would do.  Now, if that father (or mother) learned his/her child was an agreeing receptor of such violation, that disappointment and need to punish will also extend to the child.

Bottom line is, as a parent, you raise your children to be better than that.  You already taught them the difference between right and wrong and yet they had the nerve to go behind your back and choose wrong.  What’s worse is they do so with another member of the family that was already known to be a snake.

So this is now where my term “Uncle Lucifer” comes in and why I chose that for the title of this blog.  God created everything and Lucifer, who was his first creation, was by his side when he did so.  Lucifer was the closest to him, like a brother, until he betrayed him.

In true Lion King fashion, Lucifer rounded up those whom he managed to convince to join him in a battle against God and his team of angels for the right to rule.  Even though God created everything, Lucifer was already jealous at this point that he would never be more than second fiddle.  Then when God created Man, something of which he had intended to surpass his creation of angels, Lucifer went over the edge.  So consumed with jealousy, pride and lust for power, Lucifer approached the Heavenly Kingdom and won over angels that apparently felt the same way he did.

So the big fight is on as little brother Lucifer challenged big brother Yahweh (as some refer God) for the ultimate right to assume the role as king and rule over everything.  In this battle God and his team of angels won.  He could have, if he wanted to, kill off Lucifer and his team of angels, but he chose not to.  Instead, he cast them down to the earth and took away their divinity, twisting it into what we know as demonic.

Why would God do that?  Why allow brother Lucifer, who now at this point is known as Satan, and his angels (now demons) live where he’s created Man?  Believe it or not, so in tune is God with the universe, he wanted to put Satan and his demons in an environment where they can see for themselves the potential of Man.  I also believe he did this as he knew sooner or later Man would have to encounter these fallen brethren and how they’d react to them would determine the course of history as the timeline moves forward.

Adam and Eve reacted towards Satan and his demons badly.  Although they knew this group was to be avoided at all costs they were still taken in by them.  There was too much temptation for them to resist and they wound up disappointing their father (God) so that they could go have “fun” with Uncle Lucifer and his gang.

How many times, either as a kid or as a parent, have you witnessed a member of the family become disobedient as fun wins out over responsibility?  I can speak personally that I have all too often favored having a good time over starting and finishing tasks I knew had to be done.  This, in my opinion, is where gluttony and sloth creep their way into a person’s lifestyle as all too often I observe and personally experience jobs that are supposed to be done go ignored because partying with the pack is more enticing than cleaning a sink full of dirty dishes.

Innocent children are always the biggest prey of the most corrupt adults among us.  It has been this way since Genesis and it is still a problem today.  How many times have we come across stories of young children being abducted, sexually abused, physically abused and found either mutilated or dead?  Too many.  Even just once is too many.  Just look at Eve.  Look at Adam.

This is a curse, in my opinion, that has plagued mankind the second Eve caved into temptation with Uncle Lucifer.  Not only did she lose her innocence with him, but became impregnated as a result.  For those who’ll instantly challenge this conclusion let me point here that in Genesis Cain and Abel were not identical twins.  They were fraternal.  This means one came before the other.  Cain came first.  Abel came second.

Had it ever occurred to you, throughout the Old Testament, why God had his “chosen” people so violent in reaction to the Canaanites, Hittites, Amorites, Perizzites, Hivites and Jebusites?  In Deuteronomy 20:17 it even says so.  Here is a link proving my point; Satan’s Lineage

Abel is Adam’s firstborn son.  And this is whom God favored as he knew Cain was not of his seed, but rather Satan’s.  No matter how hard Cain may have tried to appease God, there was no way he could do it.  He did everything wrong and, like Lucifer, hated this and the fact that his brother Abel always seemed to everything right.

Like jealous children in a typical family household, the one brother was deemed as the loser while the other always the winner and they’d often squabble against each other as a result.  However, even God acknowledged it wasn’t entirely Cain’s fault.  It was in his genetic makeup, which was a perverted version of what God had intended for Man.  He did not hate Cain, but he hated how he was conceived.  Big difference.

And that is why to this day the lineage of Satan, which is also Cain’s lineage, Ham’s (son of Noah) lineage and also the lineage of all the families that are the formation of the Illuminati are still allowed to roam the earth alongside with the rest of mankind.  Although doubtful anyone in that lineage would seek a truly righteous path for themselves, God is an amazing giver of opportunities.  There is always an opportunity to change a way of thinking, how we act, how we react and how we go about our lives the best we can with what we’ve got.

Unfortunately, most of those opportunities are passed up.  Just like the days of Adam and Eve, mankind continues to choose wrong overall.  And it’s not just the Lucifer lineage that does this.  We all do it.

When Cain murdered Abel, perhaps Lucifer saw this as a victory.  With Abel gone through Cain he can rule the world as he sees fit.  However, along came Seth, as well as a handful of daughters.  I figure God saw to it that he was going to win this war against Lucifer/Satan by playing his own game.  I will admit, the idea of brothers taking their sisters as wives that would bear them children, even in that era has me uneasy.  I make a point to remind myself that at that time it wasn’t like there was a number of options available.  And, if we want to go there, keep in mind Adam and Eve were essentially created to serve each other as well as God.  When Eve was seduced by Lucifer the act of family incest had already begun right there.

Keep in mind God pointed out that from that moment forward everybody would be born into sin.  Well, since the wives of Cain and Seth were also their sisters, the actions of incest would continue.  It wasn’t as if they were really given a choice in the matter as their parents had already chosen this road for them.  However, because this was the avenue mankind was forced to take, in order to multiply into a grand population this was simply how it had to be.

This is not what God wanted.  He wanted better for his children, but Lucifer seeded enough corruption into those plans that he now had no choice but to let all this ride out, just like any parent would do if their child produced grandchildren that may or may not have been born with their blessing.  Got to ride it out and love what you’ve got no matter what.  Even if they do wrong, love them anyway.  It doesn’t mean you let them get away with their crimes, but you never completely turn your back on your children henceforth for as long as the quest to remain a strong, happy family remains.

This is who God is.  He is our Father.  The first father.  Each of us, including Lucifer’s side of the family, are of his lineage through his creation and Eve’s efforts as the first mother of mankind.  Despite all the wrongs we do, he will not completely turn his back on us.  However, he isn’t going to coddle us from start to finish either.  That’s not what makes a great parent.

A great parent will be there for his/her child and nourish them the best they can, but will stand back just enough to allow that child to grow into the best adult form of a human being possible.  A parent can only hope that child will obey, be righteous and kind.  If a child succeeds at this then the parent can somewhat relax with hopes this will remain a successful legacy for generations to come.

A lousy parent will still be there for the child, but interfere in absolutely everything to ensure that child succeeds, even if that child doesn’t deserve it.  That child never learns to grow to become a strong adult that can stand proud.  From childhood to adulthood that person will become a spoiled brat and expect the world to feed from his/her hand at every whim instead of working with everyone and share the fruits of their labour equally.

And sadly, this is the state of the world today.  Uncle Lucifer and his seed has spread like wild weeds on this earth as they seek to own everything, control everything and ultimately destroy everything.  This is the polar opposite of what God wanted, but mankind chose this.  They chose it at the very beginning of their creation and still choose it today.

People often ask if God is so powerful and loving, where is he?  Why is he allowing this to happen?  Well, like any good parent that knows a thing or two about how to raise a child properly is to allow their own child(ren) learn from their own mistakes and grow up to become better adults.  Coddling them the whole way and failing to discipline where necessary ends up having helpless adults that have no sense of morality and can’t tell the difference between good and evil.

This is what our world has become.  We have children that are being raised without morals, without faith and without scruples of any kind.  These are Lucifer’s kind of children and what once isolated to just his lineage has spread like a virus to the lineage of Seth, Abram, Jacob, Joseph, Daniel and even Jesus Christ.  Never before has society become so faithless and lawless as we are now.

So quite frankly, this is Uncle Lucifer’s world that we’re living in, not our Father’s.  Mother Nature is doing the best she can to keep us nourished based on what our Father has created, but for as long as Uncle Lucifer and all his children keep contaminating all that they touch, including us, this will remain a world that will die as all our sins continue to kill it.

We live in a house that’s becoming more impatient, less virtuous, more hostile and less loving.  That’s Lucifer’s house.  The “light of Lucifer” is lit by the blood, sweat and tears that God cursed upon mankind when they chose to turn their back on him right from the beginning.  The children of Lucifer bask in the luxuries that mankind has unwittingly provided them and instead of being thankful, this lineage of Satan’s seed wants more.  So overtaken by greed, they won’t be satisfied with what they got until they’ve got everything and everybody else around them has nothing.

This is how it has been during the days of Exodus when the Egyptians (Lucifer’s, Cain’s and Ham’s lineage) thumbed down the Seth, Abram, Jacob and Joseph’s Jewish lineage.  They were eventually rescued by their oppressors and brought to carve out their own destinies.  Even then, God knew these people who are “stiff necked” would flounder somewhere along the way.  In fact, the arrogance that fuelled their mistakes surfaced almost instantly after they were freed.  And these are the same wrongs we do today.

And here’s why…

It’s because when Eve fell for Lucifer’s charms and allowed to be violated her purity was forever tainted.  Even with the birth of Abel being of Adam’s seed and not Lucifer’s, remnants of serpentine blood still made it’s mark.  It was (and still is) inescapable.  The big difference was those sharing a more direct connection to Lucifer and Cain willingly embraced the corruption.  Those of Adam’s and Seth’s seeds were not.  However, with the seeds of corruption still within them and their descendants, this venom always sought opportunities to spread it’s influence, just like how cancer likes to do the same with it’s victims.

What is cancer best known for?  Eating their victims alive from the inside out until there’s nothing left and the person dies.  Each of us has a piece of Lucifer’s cancer within us and each of us die from it sooner or later.  How we go depends entirely on how we wish to deal with his disease while we’re still alive.  If we cater to it our lives will indeed be fruitless.  If we fight it, the fruits of our labour sooner or later has it’s own rewards.

Like medical cancer, the spiritual cancer is tricky.  Sometimes you think you’ve won your battles, only to realize it’s not that easy.  It’s a lifelong struggle as you need to find ways to stay ahead of that cancer.  Some people succeed at this, some don’t.  The biggest mistake those who don’t is making assumptions they’re in the clear and they lower their guard.  Doing so makes it easy for the cancer to swoop back in and all too often become a terminal one.

Of those who succeed and wish to continue with that success, they never stop fighting.  Changes will be made to their habits that become a lifestyle.  It’s not an easy battle as it is exhausting, but in the end it’s worth it.  Doing so helps a person stay true to themselves and stay loyal to their one true creator and lifeline, God through Jesus Christ via Holy Spirit.

An extreme few people succeed in this.  Why?  Because it’s not easy.  Doing so means being humble.  We, as a race, have literally been taught to be anything but.  More so now than ever before we have become vain, petty and flat out stupid.  We live in an era where “selfies” are awesome, being faithful to God is ridiculed, and brainwashing forms of mainstream media is rarely questioned.  We eat more plastics than we do food these days, wondering why we’re getting sicker by the day.  Of those who’ve clued in why, too many opt to stay oblivious to the truth because it’s inconvenient.

People hate change, which is a Luciferian trait.  People hate to be wrong, which is also another characteristic Satan possesses.  Living all seven deadly sins without remorse is precisely how Uncle Lucifer wants us to be, which trounces on the ten commandments without mercy.  Satan is precisely that one relative in everyone’s family they’re told to stay away from because he’s a bad influence.

God, just like any other parent, hopes his children grow up to become outstanding adults and perhaps even outdo them.  God is the ultimate example of the perfect father.  He loves, he cares, he tries.  However, he does not coddle and will discipline where needed.  Although it may seem the innocent are struck down for no reason at all, there is a reason for it.  It’s teaching people humility that we are not as invincible as we’d like to think we are and for as long as remain in Satan’s world and be willing participants in it without regard for our actions, nothing is guaranteed except for certain death.

So I’ve learned in this world I’d rather follow God and the lineage I hope I’m with (Adam’s) because this is the world that wants creation, life, happiness, love and as much bountiful fruit as possible.  I want nothing to do with Lucifer’s world and nothing at all to do with his lineage.  I get fearful a bit of this because my own genealogy tree has names in it that have direct ties with the biggest families within the Illuminati organization.  I really don’t want to be on the wrong side of God’s wrath when that day comes!

I know I’ve sinned.  I know I have judgment yet to fall on my head that I have to answer for.  I’ve been lucky so far, but am well aware that luck will soon give out, even though I’ve repented and try to live as righteously as I can.  I know I’m flawed because I keep having to fight those battles the venom of temptation that constantly rears it’s ugly head at me.  Most of the time I win, but I still lose more often then I care to admit.

I won’t give up, though.  That is not God’s way and it was not the ways of Adam, Seth, Abram, Noah, Job, Daniel, David, Jesus, Peter nor all those who’ve encountered situations where giving up would have been nice, easy way out options.

I hope you don’t give up either.  You’ve got to fight the spiritual fight in order to keep your spiritual cancer at bay.  If you don’t, it’ll overtake you and Uncle Lucifer will have succeeded in his goal to destroy you.

I live for my Father, not my pitiful uncle who failed to understand the true concept of what a family is supposed to be about.

Help Wanted: Lambs & Lions

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Before reading the rest of my post, please take the time to read the page the link below takes you.  It’s a long post and you need to read it with an open mind.  Doing so by any other means will be a fruitless effort.

Anti-Christ Obama Article

When Barack Obama first became president of the United States in 2009 there was not one thing about it that sat right with me.  I’m sure those who chose not to vote for him felt the same way, but my reasoning is different.  I’m not American.  I don’t get to vote there, but it doesn’t mean I still can’t voice an opinion about it.

In all honesty, the fact it was the election that would see America’s 44th president go to a black face didn’t bother me.  In that regard I didn’t care.  However, what gnawed at me right from the beginning was the fact all the true colors of this guy came bursting out the day he refused to swear on the holy bible when assuming command of a nation that believed in him enough to allow him into such a powerful position.  Doing so was not only an insult to those who preceded before him, but to the founding fathers, the people and the rest of the world.

I recall the headlines when this took place and the outrage people felt about it.  Still, despite it all, Barack Obama was still sworn in and I knew from that day forth America would never be the same.  Neither would the rest of the world.  However, I didn’t realize the severity of the situation at the time, nor do I believe the rest of the population did either.

Once Obama assumed power as president, at first America seemed to flourish.  However, it was only momentary at best and since then America has floundered.  What started out to be a slow descent didn’t waste time picking up the pace and now the suicide run towards ultimate decimation of a nation, plus a world, has become an out of control speeding bullet.  Never before has the world been as divided as it has now and never before has the futures of a global population become so uncertain.

Is Obama really the Anti-Christ?  If you’ve read the link I provided, all evidence suggests that yes he is.  Just thinking about it has me bow my head in shame because for a brief period I actually gave this guy the benefit of the doubt.  And, to this day, I’d still like to but it’s becoming harder to do so.

As I’m writing this I fear that Barack Hussein Obama is indeed the final president for the United States of America and we have yet to see the full unleash of his diabolical intent for not only the people he represents on American soil, but worldwide.  There will not be a 2016 election.  Obama and his people will see to that.  The people within America (and worldwide) has never been as divided as they are now.  The state of the world has never been as perilous as it is now.  We live in a world where an elite 1% population owns more than half of it while the remaining 99% are literally getting weeded out of everything so that in the end they have absolutely nothing.

Even the elections itself is rigged.  We have two of the biggest clowns in political history vying to become the 45th president of the United States.  Hillary Clinton is getting her name smashed everywhere for criminal activities that has people in an uproar.  Not only should this person be forced out of the presidential run, but tried and convicted for crimes that have proven to be as serious as mass murder.

Donald Trump, who seems to be the lesser of the evils, isn’t exactly squeaky clean himself.  To be quite frank, nobody is, but it’s obvious all those in power in the United States doesn’t want this guy taking over America.  But is that really true?  Donald Trump is actually hinting at something that matches what Albert Pike suggested is required in order to have World War III well underway, which would see the decimation of both the Zionist and Islamic populations.  Trump talks about rounding up the Muslims and kicking them off American soil.  He also has bashed the Illuminati, without calling them by name, which is linked to the Zionist version of the Jewish religion as we know it.


What the media is doing, along with the aid of political leaders (both American & foreign), is painting Trump as another Hitler.  And he’s certainly coming across this way.  Whether or not Donald Trump’s stance against the Barack Obama, the Elite 1% or the Illuminati is genuine is besides the point.  He (and Hillary Clinton) are adding just the right elements needed for the president of the United States to declare a state of emergency before enforcing martial law.

People say the American people won’t stand for this.  Obama knows this.  Why do you think he’s been recruiting and training military that wouldn’t give it a second thought to fire upon their own people, and right on American soil?  Why do you think he’s ordered over 150 million plastic coffins to be made up?  Also, why are strings of events that’s bent to divide the people that much further are taking place right now and are intensifying as we close in on the election date?


Obama is set to kill America and keep it as an “Obamanation” so that he can continue with his course of destruction that he has only just begun to unleash.  ISIS is just the start.  Despite evidence connecting the creation, training and momentum this terrorist organization has to Obama’s political strings, too many people still just don’t see it.

Remember, the Prince of Lies is very good at deceiving the people and he knows their personal prides hinders their ability to see clearly, even if it’s something blatantly obvious in their face.  He’s proven this a multitude of times.  Even just through Obama alone, we’ve seen him turn his back on the bible, turn his back on God, turn his back on the American people and even turn his back on the rest of the world.  This is a tyrant.  Since his administration never before has America (and the world) seen such corruption.  Right now there’s fights everywhere over every resource you can think of.  Food.  Water.  Energy.  Environment.  Human rights.  Political, religious and racial differences.

In just seven short years we’ve seen virtually every Christian value shredded from schools to restaurants and to as many public venues as possible that fall for the notion that unless it’s Islamic, it doesn’t belong in society.  They’ve even got it where Merry Christmas in public isn’t deemed acceptable anymore.


The mainstream Christians and those who follow Judaism have their differences between each other too.  However, never once did one belief system try to force the other into kicking out their own traditions in order to favor the other.  These two cultures have mostly learned to live side by side with each other and respect each other enough to acknowledge that although they don’t fully agree with each other’s practices, they still reach a common enough ground that for as long as their primary faith focuses on God it’s good enough for them.

So why isn’t it good enough for the Muslims?  Actually, for the most part it is.  It’s the extremists, just like in any other religion, that suggests otherwise.  Obama, instead of keeping those extremists at bay, encouraged them.  He sided with the divisive tactics that forces those who do not follow Sharia Law to do otherwise.

I should point out, biblical references or not, ever since Barack Obama has come into power he has taken credit away from those who deserve it.  Even the founding of America he credits not the founding fathers themselves, but rather Islam.  Again, I have nothing against the Muslims, but I do have something against someone who is perverting history as we know it, along with our present day and even the future of mankind as a whole.

Barack Obama is a problem.  However, he is not the only one.  He’s not working alone.  The Illuminati has been working for and waiting for the prime opportunity to fulfill their New World Order aspirations.  And they’re almost there.  Once the Elite 1% has 100% ownership of this world (and they’re almost there) then it’s on.  Their desire to exterminate at least 90% of the global population will come into fruition for as long as they know they can pull it off.

I should point out something about the Elite 1%.  Did you know that prior to Barack Obama becoming president of the United States that they didn’t own nearly as much as they do now?  The momentum of their seizures of property skyrocketed shortly after Obama assumed presidency and the corruption that’s at the heart of it all is now on the verge of putting into place the final ingredient necessary to allow that 100% world ownership they’re craving.

The TPP.  Trans-Pacific Partnership.  As “legitimate” as this seems, it’s not.  Once this is put in place we’re no longer official nations with people still enjoying the last remnants of their liberties and freedoms.  We will officially become corporations and we, the people, will then be no longer regarded as human beings but rather herded sheep ready for slaughter.

That’s the true agenda behind the TPP.  It’s just another milestone towards the Illuminati’s New World Order.  It’s not just some conspiracy theory.  It’s fact.

Another fact.  The supposed “war” between Benjamin Netanyahu (Israel’s leader) and Barack Obama is that picture perfect Zionism vs Islam recipe Albert Pike called for in order to achieve the World War III the Illuminati wants.  Make no mistake, these are very bad men in very powerful positions, toying with the lives of every human being and doing so with a laugh.  ISIS belongs to them.  Both of them.  And this alone has the world greatly divided, but one thing I’ve learned quickly is if a person gets damned for speaking out against the state of Israel where it’s perfectly alright to speak against Christianity we have a real problem.

And isn’t it interesting how well prepped this World War III stage is becoming?  NATO (North American Treaty Organization) is surrounding Russia as we speak.  In prophecy, the bear strikes the eagle, officially launching WWIII.  Russia is the bear while America is supposed to be the eagle.  In this war, the bear strikes first, but the eagle makes a quick, decisive victory.

Considering Russia made it clear they reject Zionism and have declared the Illuminati top dogs (Rothschilds) as enemies of the state and are to be executed on site, this is no surprise.  Russia, along with Brazil, India, China and South America, are out to form BRICS, which would bring Rothschilds and their central banking system to their knees and render nations bowing to their every whim defenceless.  This would have actually been a good thing as this would have freed the masses from the grips of slavery such nations and their banking cartel has gripped us.

But, the Illuminati won’t have it.  Using their political puppets and the mainstream media networks they own, they were quick to paint Russia as once again the big bad guys.  Obama was quick to capitalize on this, proving he’s not merely a puppet so many of us thought he was.  He’s anything but this.  Even I regarded him as a mindless puppet until I realized just how diabolically genius he is.

So now Russia is surrounded, once again provoked to take action.  Did you know their so-called “unjustified” attack on Ukraine is not what mainstream media would have us believe?  No way!  If you dare to look further and bypass the lies the networks and politicians have told you you’d come to realize there’s good reason why Russia won’t leave the Ukraine alone.  It’s not the people they have a problem with.  It’s the administration, plus the fact this is an Illuminati/Rothschild stronghold.

But NATO is quickly springing into action. I should also point out that for the most part, Russia was left alone by the American government until Obama took over.  It wasn’t until he assumed leadership that he and his minions have been poking this bear like a pack of ravenous wolves.  They do this, all the while pretending to behave like mild lambs.


So the world got educated into thinking the Russians are bad guys once again.  So, by Obama’s queue, they line up through NATO to keep poking at the bear.  Did you know that despite the multitude of times through Obama’s administration of them poking Vladimir Putin and his Russian government that not once did they give into the kind of reaction the Illuminati wanted?  They’ll snarl and growl, but they won’t swat.  At least not yet.

However, even the most patient bear will sooner or later be forced to swat, and Russia is finding themselves in this position.  However, will it be by Putin’s order where this bear sends the first shot against the eagle, or will it be someone in his administration that is yet another Illuminati puppet?  Either way, this will happen.  And once it does, here comes yet another red carpet layout for President Barack Obama to declare martial law upon his own nation and wipe out 90% of his homeland’s population.  Again, he won’t do that on his own.  Remember, he has his own personal military, police and thugs to do all the dirty work for him.  And, just like puppets on a string, the people will be forced to defend themselves (if they can) against those who are bent on destruction.  People, America is in real trouble!

But it won’t be just America.  This is worldwide.  Other nations that follow Obama’s lead will force the same conditions upon their own people.  Canada will see Canadians suffer the same fate.  The UK will be no better off.  Neither will Australia.  Anybody that’s trapped within the Commonwealth is basically America #2 and will experience all the chaos and misery as well.  The Commonwealth, once upon a time a fantastic concept, has become corrupt as those who run it now are of the same calibre as Obama, Netanyahu and the Elite 1%.  It’s no accident the biggest political puppets the world’s got happen to run nations that have become 100% Illuminati owned and operated.  All the pieces on this deadly game board is in place now.  It’s not a matter of if something is going to happen anymore.  It’s now a matter of when.

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All this time we’ve been lied to.  All this time we’ve been brainwashed, keeping us divided and uninformed.  We’ve been thrust into emotional situations designed to corrupt our way of thinking, our way of feeling and our way of living.  All this so it can be easier to pave the way for the New World Order, diabolically brought to you by the Illuminati, their Elite 1%, and all their political, corporate, military and religious puppets.  And Lucifer.  Don’t forget about him.  All of this, regardless if you believe in God, the Holy Bible or even the notion that somehow Barack Hussein Obama may indeed be the Anti-Christ, is to fulfill a Luciferian goal.  That goal is to shred this world apart and everyone in it.  Flat out, your Christian faith doesn’t matter here.  Nor does your Atheism, Judaism, Muslim, Buddhist or whatever you want to believe in.

What matters here is our HUMANITY!  Fight for it.  Live for it.  Even die for it if you must, but do so with full awareness of what’s going on and full faith that doing so is indeed for the sake of mankind.  Whether or not you choose to believe it, God would.  Jesus did.  And both God and Jesus may very well do so again – but not until we all agree this is what we need.  I know deep down in my gut (the only thing I listen to these days) I need them in my corner.  Whether you choose to believe it or not, you need them too.





I don’t know about the rest of you, but I will not let a lame president, regardless if he’s the Anti-Christ or not dictate to me where my loyalties should lie.  I will not let a world who is so divided on who they should ally themselves with tell me whose corner I should be in.  My battles will be fought siding with God in hopes I have his strength, plus the guidance and wisdom of Jesus Christ and the flow of the Holy Spirit through my veins to do whatever I can the best way I know how.  I am not a popular person nor do I wish to be.  I want to be righteous despite my flaws in everything I do.  Not because it’s something I think God wants – but because that is what how I feel our humanity is defined and it simply feels right to me.

You Asked For It

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Be careful what you wish for.  You just might get it, but the end result might not be as you expected.  Also, it is proven that anything worth having must be done so by genuine effort and it’s up to you to go get it.  Nobody else will do this for you and quite frankly, nobody else but you knows what you want/need better than you do.

Sadly, most people don’t see it this way.  They claim they do but in all honesty they don’t.  Look at how most nations are run these days.  Especially within North America, never have we seen such a corrupt structure of what feels more like petty, criminal masterminds in charge.

But you know what?  You voted them in!  Of those who cared to vote, the vast majority didn’t care enough to vote with enough intelligence to put an end to the madness that spirals more out of control each day.  When politicians come forth vowing reach change in their election campaigns, people are all to eager to soak it up.  Of those who blindly fall for the promises they quickly pick a side and no amount of argument (reasonable or not) will sway them from picking whom they think is the best choice.

All too often I hear their reasoning as to why they favor a specific party or person “it’s the lesser of the evils” and to those people I laugh at them.  Just because it appears to be a lesser evil doesn’t mean it’s the right choice either.  Evil is still evil.  Corruption still runs rampant and by voting in what you think is that lesser evil doesn’t change the fact that the region, state/province or nation you call home has people in power that shouldn’t be there.

But you asked for it.  You voted them in.  Over the years, and even going as far back as the generations, people all too easily forget their roots as they cry for change.  We, as a people, are impatient.  Adam and Eve proved that back in Genesis when they chose the Tree of Knowledge over the Tree of Life.  They were in such a hurry to become “educated” that they forgot how to live.  Because of this, instead of elevating themselves at a pace that would have been more beneficial in the end, they opted for shortcuts.  They figured out the hard way those shortcuts were treacherous and full of unforeseen dangers and they knew there was no turning back.  This was the path they had chosen and one they had no choice but to stay on.

This is how everybody is.  There is not one man, woman nor child that doesn’t possess an ounce of impatience within them.  That impatience is the doorway to invite all the evils and turn us into something we shouldn’t be.  It makes us forget who we really are and throws us down those exact same paths of treachery and danger as we have no choice but to follow them.

How you do it is up to each of us.  So far, as a whole, we’re not doing well at all.  We keep allowing circumstances to make that path more hazardous than it already is, despite the fact there are numerous opportunities to prevent that process.

I can’t begin to tell you how many times I run into people who say they want to change this and that.  Stop smoking.  Eat healthier.  Finish projects still undone.  The list goes on.  The majority of those people always find excuses to never change their ways and this not only shows in their daily lives and habits, but in our voting patterns as well.

Sorry people, but you are a gullible race.  You fall for the serpents and their lies over and over again instead of paying closer attention to the lambs that are showing you ways to get out of the mess that you created.

Yes, you.  Not the politicians.  You.  Through voter apathy and failing to truly take action to spark the change you claim so much you want, you’ve played the biggest role here in why the world is as upside down as it is.  All those political leaders, despite all the corrupt influences that have moulded them into who and what they are, never would be in a position to abuse their authority if you had simply exercised better judgment than just blindly voting them in.

And it’s not just the politicians that play you.  The most popular artists throughout the course of time has managed to utilize entertainment as a means to distract people from the horrific truths of what road this world is on.  They’ve also mastered the art of exploiting all the seven deadly sins in a manner where it seems more fun to cave into temptation than it is to resist.  In time, all those commandments God laid out for us becomes a joke and in many cases, forgotten.  All the laws, statutes, etc. are also lost and before you know it, what used to be a worldwide society of decency has turned into a global collection of lost souls.

Don’t believe me?  Okay, how about the arena games within the Roman Empire?  They were brutal.  People were entertained by watching gruesome battles take place between individuals, most of them slaves thrown there against their own will, where it was a requirement to kill in order to win.  During this era, citizens were literally dehumanized as they thought this brand of entertainment was acceptable.

Keep in mind, however, these people didn’t believe in God.  They believed in a multitude of gods and it wasn’t until Jesus Christ came along that real change began to take place among the masses.  Prior to his arrival, during and after, those considered Christians or at least believed only in one god instead of a multitude were often thrown into that arena to die before an eager crowd that was so consumed with blood lust that any sign of decency or common sense was just not there.

Think we’re any better now?  Hardly.  Over time there’s always been violent tendencies towards any form of entertainment.  Even when the earliest wars were fought, the wealthiest and most influential among the population would actually watch from a safe distance as men would go up against men, killing each other on behalf of the government they support.  Nowadays we have televised broadcasts where it’s not just the wealthy who can watch.  Everyone can.

And if watching real wars isn’t enough to keep the people entertained, there’d be scripted shows glorifying violence where it’s usually good against evil.  Knowing people are usually going to side with the good, they see to it everybody gets their money’s worth.  And, alongside the scripted programs would be sports where it’s very purpose is to be violent enough to win.  Sports such as boxing and wrestling are prime examples of this.

Don’t get me wrong.  There was a time where the theatrics we were exposed to wasn’t so bad.  Shortly after the Roman Empire fell it did seem like the human race began to wise up as Christianity, Judaism, Islam and other religions began to blossom in what appeared to be peaceful enough.  Even though ugliness would still poke out from time to time, overall it seemed like we were able to keep it in check.

However, corruption always finds a way to catch up.  For as long as there’s enough pride to feed on to turn a patient person into someone impatient, the paths of horror will always overrun the paths of decency sooner or later.

Once again using television as my examples of choice, I remember growing up as a kid and watching programs of the 50s, 60s, 70s and 80s.  As an adult it was from the 90s onward.  One thing I noticed was how the first two decades had programming with very little violence in it.  And, such violence was not graphic.  In fact it was probably more comical rather than anything else.  No foul language was used then and there was no nudity.  At least not on the major networks.  However, over time this had changed.  I remember watching Little House on the Prairie, The Waltons, The Little Rascals and a variety of shows that really focused on family and friends in a manner that was not only entertaining, but educational as well.  In some cases, even spiritual.  It was during a time where God was very much in the picture and in a positive way.

You don’t see that today.  The most recent televised program, Seventh Heaven, was really the final series that still had family values in place and still sent good messages about God.  They were able to do this both as Christians and as Jewish.  It was great.  They also excelled at taking today’s problems and using faith and decency to resolve them.

This isn’t the case anymore.  We now have programs where foul language is normal, as is nudity, violence, gore, etc.  Is this considered evolving?  Some say in the earlier decades we were oppressed.  But that’s now how I see it.

Programming was oppressed by the people as the networks knew in order to stay in business and keep those who sponsor them profitable, they had to keep the people entertained enough so that they could carry out whatever schemes they have in mind in hopes nobody would notice.

Make no mistake, those major networks are owned by the Elite 1% and I’ve made it no secret who they are and who they associate with and what their ultimate goal is.  All those big corporations that have aired their commercials over the stretch of time are in on it too.  They all worked together and still do today.  They know through commercialism and means of entertainment that would keep a person lured they could achieve their goals with ease.

One observation I’ve made is now that televised and theatrical broadcasts are no longer so oppressed, in turn the people are.  Today we have less freedoms as our charter of rights has been tainted, along with the constitutions, laws and regulations.  The only people capable of doing this are our politicians, the ones we vote in to rule over us.

Bottom line, people, not one politician in power has what it takes to do that.  In reality, they never did.  Of the rare political figure that would dare to side with the people, they were silenced one way or the other, usually by assassination or some form of mysterious circumstance that would baffle those paying attention.  And each and every time such an occasion would take place, the scapegoat who takes the fall for the crime is merely nothing more than a mindless puppet.  The real evils who set forth the silence act always manage to get away with their crimes, mainly because they have the general population too distracted with matters.

What’s crazy is despite all the fascist-based laws, rules and regulations that are in place today in some form to oppress the people even further, never have we become as heartless and as lawless as we are today.  Violence, as usual, takes center stage as all these divisional horrors are carried out.

Today human beings live brazen lifestyles that saw cities like Sodom and Gomorrah get scorched for it.  It’s everywhere.  And no, I’m not talking about homosexuality here.  I’m talking about embracing all seven deadly sins like it’s a normality, as well as ignoring the laws, statutes and commandments that God laid out for his people after their exodus from their oppressors.

But you know what?  You asked for it.  Not just by voting in political evils to run our world, but by supporting influences that should really be shelved into obscurity instead of receiving so much glorifying attention.  What does it say about idolatry?  We’re not supposed to worship any graven image, regardless if it’s a seal painted on a piece of paper, or a celebrated human being that knows how to captivate an entire audience.  Yet most of us do.

Okay, so I suppose this is where the argument of Jesus Christ comes in.  If we’re not supposed to engage in idolatry, where does he come in?  How about God for that matter?  Would not worshipping them be the same as worshipping Madonna or Kanye West?

My answer to that is both yes and no.  I’m not saying to round up all of Madonna’s recorded work and trash it.  What I am saying is the Holy Bible is merely a book.  For me, a very important book that serves both as a history lesson and a spirit guide, but I won’t run around the countryside with it in my grasp and screaming at people to repent.  That’s not my role and I know it.  I’m also not going to run around wearing a piece of jewelry with a cross on it because I have some grand illusion that it’ll bring me closer to God.  To me, that stuff is superficial and that’s the point I’m out to make here.

Idolatry is basically elevating something (or someone) into something more than they deserve to be.  God, in my opinion, should be worshipped as he is our creator.  I don’t care what those who don’t believe in him says.  However, I don’t idolize God in a manner where I will run out naked in the middle of some street in Bethlehem, drop to my knees and start praying aloud.  For me, I regard God in the same manner as I regard my biological father.  God created my ancestors, as well as my father and then me.  That’s how I see God and this is also how I see Jesus Christ.  I don’t see him as someone I have to drop down and kiss toes or oil down with ointment.  I see him as our big brother, so to speak, who has set out an example for all of us to follow.  Although it’s acknowledged none of us can be him, we can at least try to stay as close to the examples he laid out for us the best we can.

You know what?  I don’t want to be Jesus Christ!  That’s another form of idolatry in my eyes.  And it’s actually idolatry that has this world and everyone in it behaving so irrationally and most of them don’t even know it.  I hear people “Oh, I want to be just like Lady Gaga” and I’m thinking how unfortunate it is that person doesn’t see his/her own potential to be someone whom I think is way better than the goof they’re idolizing.

Don’t get me wrong.  I appreciate musicians, actors, writers, poets, etc. as I believe they are the heart and soul of mankind’s development.  However, like politicians, there are the decent and the corrupt.  Of those that are corrupt, most of them don’t even realize it and just as many of them don’t care.  Again, just like certain politicians, for as long as they got everything they want and have control of the masses they will continue with their ways for as long as they can.

At least for as long as you allow it.  Again, everything that’s going on this world, going as far back as Genesis itself, has by been your design.  We’ve brought this onto ourselves and it’s up to us to at least try and fix it.  I know we can’t because we’re flat out not talented enough to do that.  At least not yet.  And this is why we need help and there’s only one who can do that.  It’s not Barack Obama, nor Justin Trudeau, Hillary Clinton, Donald Trump, Vladimir Putin, Benjamin Netanyahu, Queen Elizabeth, nor even the United Nations for that matter.

Only a creator is going to care enough to step in.  All those in power are not these things.  They’re destroyers, manipulators and every bit as gullible as we are.  However, for as long as we keep making bad choices, that creator is not going to interfere until we all smarten up and ask for it and prove that we are worthy of asking.

We, in my opinion, are addicts.  The people in charge of this world knows this.  We’re addicted to pride, lust, greed, gluttony, wrath, laziness and envy.  These are all typical traits that are exploited when we allow our own impatience overtake our better sense of judgment.  Like an addict, engaging in these drugs makes us feel good at the time.  When the effects wear off and we feel the pain of reality sink in, too many of us are all too eager to go take those drugs again.  Next thing you know it becomes a way of life and like an addict, we want the help, but incapacitate ourselves to the point where we won’t.  Or, we become so desperate we ask the wrong people for help.

And this is where our corrupt political leaders come in.  They know how lost we are as a people.  Over the course of time we’ve set all the right conditions needed for the evils to just sway in, screw us up so badly we can’t even see anymore, and keep demoralizing everyone until there’s nothing left.

We have very little left now as it is.  How much longer we’ll be able to hang onto it is up to you.  It’s up to each of us.  Want to remain an addict until you die?  Then by all means, keep allowing all the wrong people to run your life for you and keep taking those drugs that continue to cloud your judgment.

I, however, refuse to remain as an addict.  Addictions are hard to fight and I battle those demons daily.  But I won’t give up.  I will fight to my last breath doing everything I can to keep corruption as far away from me as I can, even though I know I can’t do it alone.  I have no problem asking for help and that’s amazing coming from a person that’s overloaded with pride.  But, the help I ask for will never be of those I know full well would never understand exactly what I’m going through and how to fix the problem without contaminating me that much further.

In the meantime, until that help arrives, I do what I can on my own and help those who are in the same boat as me, or at least trying to get on it.  I’d love to help everyone, but I’m not God.  I don’t have that kind of power.  And, unlike the politicians that keep pulling the wool over your eyes, just as their corporate sponsors do, I will never pretend to be him either.

So, what are you asking for now?  Are you still asking for the same tyrants to save your life, despite knowing they’re going to destroy it anyway?  Or, are you finally going to wise up and make the effort to help yourself, but at the same time be humble enough to ask the one and only individual qualified and interested enough to join you?